Can I get a redo?

Oh, How I could go on and on...and on...but this cute Little Miss pretty much sums it up for ya!

Chaotic Bliss

Chaotic Bliss

Wake up! Time to go.

Drink too much coffee and run to and fro.

Hold on! It'll go too fast.

Before you know it today will be the past.

There is always tons to do.

Laundry, dishes, cooking, cleaning, and baths too.

Feed the kids, dog and maybe myself today,

I'm on my second pot and hey, what can I say?

Go to work, go to school, go everywhere and the store.

No lunch break today, there's so much more.

Wait, Did I brush my hair? Oh hell, who cares?!?

A husband, three kids, and a dog.

I'm zombie mom walking in the fog.

The day is almost gone and what do I see?

A messy house, bills unpaid, things left undone,

and those little blessings...that still love me.

That's all I have today...Birdie is crying. GTG ;)

Fear of change...

 True story. 

I hate change!

  I'm usually perfectly content with my boring, everyday, routine. I like to be aware, in control and have a grip(or so I like to tell myself) on at least most things going on around me. I know there are several reasons for the way I am. Most of the reasons are due to things I didn't have control over, thus did not like or couldn't deal with the outcome.
I'm learning...slowly. Change is inevitable! It has happened, is happening and yep, it's going to happen again.
Actually, fairly sooner than I would have liked.
There are some major things going on and once again my fears are taking over. I'm praying for strength, wisdom and a peace of heart and mind so that we will get through whatever changes come. I know God has a plan and it is so much better than mine, but I'm only human and I struggle. Today I am moving as forward as I know how and praying I get answers.

I need THIS

  This is the stuff I need!

I need to write. 

I need to be able to make an income.

I need more skills to do that.

I need to make time to focus and time to hone whatever it is I can do to make money. 

I seriously need this to work. 

I need prayers, encouragements and any and all help available! 

I need to find something, anything to make me feel like I CAN do something.

I need to feel like a contributor and not such a taker all the time! 

I need to learn not to let all the negativity make me feel like a failure.

I need to voice my opinions without fear of being labeled or criticized for them. 

I need to stop selling myself short.

I need to be more proactive with my own goals.

I need to find great networking help.

I need to care less about what others may think of me.

I need to be accepting of myself more.

I need to learn more.

I need to stop being so NEEDY!