Friday, January 16, 2015

New obsession? New idea...

My new obsession, as I'm calling it, is The Scary Mommy confessions. As in by Jill Smokler.
(As I am writing this, my 1yr old is crying to be let out of the play yard, DH is yelling for a towel, and the dog is whining...AGAIN!)
I swear they are all out to get me. Every time I get an ounce of inspiration or feel something "blog worthy" all Hell breaks loose around here.
PLEASE?...5 mins? 2? Anything?
So, back to my post. I am seriously in love with this woman! She has blogged, wrote books and lived everything I have been trying to do and say for over 4 yrs now. When I started my first blog this is almost exactly what I wanted to do. Everything I didn't want to say to people's faces or admit openly but a way to say what I needed to. What I was feeling or how I saw things. My opinions. My stories, experiences.
Then I started biggest fault. My own self sabotage. I think about who will read it. Friends, family? Will they know it is about them? I seriously am not trying to intentionally hurt or call out anyone, but if you are in my life, some time or another your experiences will be in my life. How can I write and be completely honest without looking like the big B that " wrote that!"
Well, here it is. I am 34, married and mother of 3. I have had a lot of living, encounters, experiences, etc.
I have laughed, cried, been used, abused, blessed, stressed and so on! I am tired of holding myself back and being afraid of who I will hurt or what others will think.(FYI, it won't be ALL bad. Promise)
Interpret it how you will, this is me.
Jill Smokler is a mom who decided to blog her adventures in motherhood as a SAHM. I know it's been done a zillion times and it seems the same ole things on each blog. Each of us feel like our story is blog worthy and sometimes we just need an outlet. A way to scream over the internet "Hey, it's me! I'm still here!"
For whatever reason we decide to share our stories, it helps.
Jill has brought out the good, bad, and ugly of our everyday lives and uses her website confessional as a way to say what we want with no guilt of being found out. It can all be done anonymously.

Here is my plan(praying it isn't plagiarism)
I am going to do a sort of confession Friday
I haven't came up with an exact name just yet. This is kind of on one of my 5 second whims...
Or exactly what format I want to do this but I need to start somewhere.
Here's mine for today.

1. I recently cut 7 inches off of my hair because I'm too lazy to take care of it. Seriously, I wash it, wad it up in a bun and maybe in 2 days I'll wash it again and repeat.
2. Sometimes my dog goes all day without eating because I wait until the kids get home and make them feed her. (teaching them responsibilities, right?)
3. I let the car insurance lapse on purpose in hopes that DH would take on more responsibilities.